That four letter word

Love.
Amor.
Amour.
Sayang.
Amore.
Liefde.

However you say it, it's love. It's the same wherever you go.
I feel the need to write about this because I feel like  the topic of love and relationships has been surrounding my life lately.

It's not doubt that summer is here, and love is in the air. I find myself being asked the same questions on this topic.

"Have you ever been kissed?"
"Have you ever had a boyfriend?"
"Have you ever been, in love?"

The answer to all those questions is a big, fat NOPE.
I don't mean to be all negative about it. It's just when people tend to have the same questions it gets kind of old. Yes, I am eighteen years old and have never had a boyfriend. Nor have these lips been touched by another boys lips. All VL, baby. But thinking back to the question if I have ever been in love, I don't think I have. I maybe look back on it and thought at the time that it was love, but now I realize it wasn't. It was merely an attraction from afar. Dreaming that one day he'd somehow come to his senses and just confess his undying love for me. To be frank, I made it all up in my head. Story of my life. All I will say about the boy is he is gone for the moment, he won't be back for another year and a half, but those feelings are still there. I think they always will be.

Going back to the boyfriend thing, I never saw myself as that girl who would ever be serious with a guy in middle school or high school. I just knew I wasn't that type of girl. It may sound horrible, but I don't want to be tied down to one guy at this time in my life. I'm only a teenager for crying out loud. I feel this is the time in my life where I should be going on lots of dates with different people and just having fun. I never want to be known as "so and so's girl". Or, "Oh yeah that girl? She's _______'s girlfriend." Cringe.

I guess the thought of being someone else's girlfriend is just scary to me. I don't think I will know what to do when I get to that point. What do girlfriends do anyway? What is a girlfriend? 

I guess I don't like the thought of belonging to anyone. I am not some trophy girlfriend to show off. I have always been a wild spirit. I never want anything to hold me down, I crave adventure. I want to travel the world and meet new people and live in a city where no one knows my background, and judges me for what I can become and not what I am.

I don't see myself getting married or settling down anytime soon. Unlike the rest of Utah, I don't plan to be married til about 25. I want my own career first.

Since we are on the subject I thought I'd talk about love and other stuff. I guess the concept of being with one person for the rest of your life is somewhat crazy to me. Possible, but crazy. I see the adults who are married in my life and how they have to work at their marriages and they fight a lot. But I know it's possible for two people to want to spend every moment together, and that's how I see my parents. My dad endlessly drives my mom nuts, but I know she loves him. I think it's amazing to have someone who knows every bit and part of you and accepts you the way you are. I can only hope one day I will have that. And when I do, I will love and accept him the same way.

But at the moment, love can wait.

X Bry

music is my boyfriend.

Forever alone. Can't sleep so I decided to list a couple songs that have been stuck in my head the past couple days. Some are old, some are new but I just can't stop listening to all of them.

In no particular order...

Radioactive - Imagine Dragons
New York State of Mind - Billy Joel
Anything Could Happen - Ellie Goulding
Kill Your Heroes - AWOLNATION
Everything Has Changed - Taylor Swift ft. Ed Sheeran
How To Be A Heartbreaker - Marina and The Diamonds
Where Christmas Is Found - Cameron Mitchell ft. aprilemade
Eet - Regina Spektor
Waiting For A Girl Like You - Foreigner
Sweeter - Gavin DeGraw
Paris - Grace Potter & The Nocturnals
Blue Spotted Tail - Fleet Foxes

x Bry

simple as that.

I believe in puppies and over sized sweaters. I believe in Christmas lights and the way they can instantly change someone's mood. I believe in spontaneity because the best stories come from being spontaneous and just going with it. I believe in music and its power in healing the soul. I believe in hot chocolate in any kind of flavor, (preferably salted caramel from Starbucks, but that's just me). I believe in making my own happiness by enjoying the little things in life such as the feeling of fresh snow falling on your nose or the warm fuzzy feeling you get when Christmas rolls around. 

These are just a few things that make me happy, especially in this winter season. Ever since living in Utah I can't imagine a Christmas without snow. There's absolutely no greater sight than walking around Salt Lake when snow is falling from the heavens above. It lights up the temple even more. It's a glorious sight, I tell ya. I would know since I went on a date there just this Friday. It was by far the best date I've ever been on. My date and I just kept raving on and on how much fun it was and how beautiful it looked. It felt like my own little slice of New York. Throughout the night we walked around town speaking in British accents and acting like complete dummies. It was so fun. 

I've had a pretty stressful week and this Christmas break is very much needed. I have family visiting from California and I'm tellin you guys, I could not be more stoked! It's been too long since we have all been together all at once and I can't wait to exchange stories and lots of laughter and love. I am mostly excited to feel the true spirit of Christmas ringing throughout our home. I hope you all have a very Merry Christmas and  a Happy New Year. 

xx Bry

so I procrastinated my new years resolutions

It's a horrible habit. I bet y'all can guess what's number one on my list huh??? but I'm doing them now! doesn't that count for anything? no? oh okay.
well fellow bloggers I sure hope your holiday season was just grand, I know mine was. I got to spend Christmas with my family and New Years with my family and then a party with my friends. it was a blast, definitely blog worthy. we mostly played dance central uno y dos but that's besides the point.
well without further ado my resolutions for 2012 are as follows. NO LAUGHING.

1. Stop procrastinating (starting now)
2. Get my first kiss
3. Go on my first date
4. Dance in the rain
5. Kiss a stranger on the cheek
6. Wink at a random attractive male
7. Maintain a healthy weight
8. Paint my room
9. Get my young women's medallion
10. Eat healthier
11. Be grateful
12. Less fighting with siblings/parents
13. Make new friends
14. Take a roadtrip with friends
15. Go all out for The Hunger Games premieres
16. Be organized
17. Learn guitar
18. Make a music video
19. Go to more concerts
20. Sing in front of an audience
21. Write a song
22. Learn to cook
23. Learn to crochet
24. Have a mud fight
25. Have a summer romance

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"Do you know how much it costs to quit layaway?! Oh look a blonde hair! Wait.. What was the question?"

"You were asking me the question you freak." 

"No I will not turn this Christmas wreath into an alien."

"Look it's a baby with an afro!"

"Bry, friends come and go, but family is forever!"

"But I don't wanna be stay with you people forever."

"I thought I turned up the volume on my phone!"

"Well did you turn up the volume on your hearing aide?"

"Boys are so gullible."

"No we're not!"

"Did you know if you say orange really fast it sounds like gullible?"

"Orranngeee.."

"Idiot." 

"Let me ask you guys something, do you cry when you throw up? Cause sometimes I do.."

"I ate like six fiber one bars in one day. Totally wrecked my stomach."

"Does Harvard have a football team?"

"How bout I meet you in-"

"How bout you sit there and be quiet."

"Okay."

"I'm gonna call you tonight, baby."

"Um, no that's okay."

'So I went to Lehman's house-"

"You went to Lehman's house?!"

"Oh wait, NOO! I meant his room, I knocked on his door."

"Oh I was gonna say..."

"My mom calls him a 'She-it'."

"It sounds like you're saying the s word with an accent."

*repeat over and over again*

"Bry, you're not gonna die with one bad grade. I graduated with straight f's and I turned out fine."

*buying halloween costume*

"Oh, interesting costume haha.."

"Oh yeah, you're Rachel's friend. The one that likes Nicki Minaj."

"Jared, your sister gave you a compliment! Go give her a hug!"

"Don't touch me fool."

"It's called better than sex cake."

"Well I wouldn't know."

"Can fat people skinny dip?"

"TAKE THAT MARCHING BAND!!"

"I rented Narnia."

"You went to Narnia?!?!"

"Yes Noel, I went to Narnia."

"I think I just saw a bear!! Oh wait it's a cow.."

It's a Billy Joel Kind of Day

Who am I kidding, every day is!

Hey there fellow bloggers. First off I'd like to apologize. I'm REALLY bad at this blogging thing, I know. I'll get the hang of it soon enough. Or later. Maybe nev- Well I hope you are all doing just dandy on this fine weekend. It has for me! 

I went to a baby shower. Party hard. First thing you need to know about me is that I LOVE BABY SHOWERS. I don't know what it is about 'em but I've loved 'em since I was a mere child. Maybe it's the excitement that a baby is coming (did I also mention I love children? Soo much), maybe it's the fun games, or maybe it's the elegant delicacies that are in my presence.

Yep that's it. I like food. More than I should, really.

If you are eating food as of know (like me), enjoy this playlist to go with your wonderful meal. Hence the title.


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Happy List

Not gonna lie, today has been a crap day. So I've decided to list the things that make me happy. 

It's therapeutic and I love it. 

Bryanna's Happy List

1. Seeing that one boy that gets me all giddy inside just seeing his face. Why yes, I am a 12 year old girl on the inside.

2. Red velvet. Enough said. 

3. New Girl. If you have not seen or heard of this show you are currently living under a rock. It's sooooooo funnay.

4. My moccasin heels that I get tons of compliments on.

5. The Hush Sound. I recently discovered them. Where the heck have I been?

6. PINTEREST.

7. Coldplay's new album. I can't - I can't even put into words how magnificent it is. I applaud you Chris Martin. 

8. My new bag. YIPEEEEEE! Yay for moms with great taste.

9. Logan Lerman, cause he's hawt and stuff.

10. 80's movies. I love me some Jon Hughes. 

11. Really amazing photos cause it only makes me want a camera that much more.

12. Fall fashion.

13. Christmas music in October. The countdown begins. 

14. Disney Movies. On the VCR. I don't wanna grow up.

These are just the few things that make me happy.

What makes you happy?

XOXO, Bryanna